Uncharted Waters
It's funny how things change and before you know it you are in a situation you havent been in in a very long time.
INTEGRITY QUESTIONED
This is something that was a real eye opener, a terrible passion and drive crusher, a reality check and potentially one of the best things that has happened to me for a while. A couple of weeks ago i was 'torn limb from limb' (may be dramatising a little bit) by some people very close to me, in a drunken state, basically, in my drunken eyes, being told I was shit and could perhaps not 'Be Better.'
REFLECTION
Upon recieveing this 'beating' I went through a lot of stages:
1. Disbelief or the 'How Could They?' Stage
2. The 'How Dare They?' or Denial Stage
3. The 'Maybe They Have a Point' or Swallowing My Pride Stage
4. The 'I Don't Think I Am Good Enough' or Stage Where I Gave Up
5. The 'Fuck That' or I'm Can Overcome Stage
and finally
6. The 'Lets Dot It!' or Evolve and Prove Them Wrong Stage
I am currently in the process of getting opinions from people in the form of professional competencies as to what areas I am shit in, and I use the phrase Shit as I respond to being called shit in an area better than 'Not Good At'.
One thing I have learned:
Complacency is the DEVIL. This is something I always pulled others up on, but that was my problem, I fell into the trap of stagnating in my own performance and development, while still being quite happy to tell others that they suck. I am past this now, I still voice my opinion, however am making steps to make myself a better person.
Special Thanks to these people for making me realise I am a valued person, but that it doesn't mean I can rest on my laurels and relax:
Mel Mel, James W. (A.K.A. My Two Amigos), Kezz, Jess (My QUT Girls), Nicky (Fav Sydneysider), Shaun and Caitlyn (My Other 2 Wheels).
Azz H.
INTEGRITY QUESTIONED
This is something that was a real eye opener, a terrible passion and drive crusher, a reality check and potentially one of the best things that has happened to me for a while. A couple of weeks ago i was 'torn limb from limb' (may be dramatising a little bit) by some people very close to me, in a drunken state, basically, in my drunken eyes, being told I was shit and could perhaps not 'Be Better.'
REFLECTION
Upon recieveing this 'beating' I went through a lot of stages:
1. Disbelief or the 'How Could They?' Stage
2. The 'How Dare They?' or Denial Stage
3. The 'Maybe They Have a Point' or Swallowing My Pride Stage
4. The 'I Don't Think I Am Good Enough' or Stage Where I Gave Up
5. The 'Fuck That' or I'm Can Overcome Stage
and finally
6. The 'Lets Dot It!' or Evolve and Prove Them Wrong Stage
I am currently in the process of getting opinions from people in the form of professional competencies as to what areas I am shit in, and I use the phrase Shit as I respond to being called shit in an area better than 'Not Good At'.
One thing I have learned:
Complacency is the DEVIL. This is something I always pulled others up on, but that was my problem, I fell into the trap of stagnating in my own performance and development, while still being quite happy to tell others that they suck. I am past this now, I still voice my opinion, however am making steps to make myself a better person.
Special Thanks to these people for making me realise I am a valued person, but that it doesn't mean I can rest on my laurels and relax:
Mel Mel, James W. (A.K.A. My Two Amigos), Kezz, Jess (My QUT Girls), Nicky (Fav Sydneysider), Shaun and Caitlyn (My Other 2 Wheels).
Azz H.
2 Comments:
Azz I think I may need to start stalking you because we haven't talked in like a bajillion years. Stalking is difficult from across the world however, so perhaps it is just easier if we started chatting it up again. It sounds like you're going through some major stuff, which is tough but incredible at the same time. I hope you will be at IC seeing as how i leave for Warsaw in T minus 9 hours! Miss you like woah butthead.
10:05 AM
Hey hey
Wish I was gonna be at IC, but unfortunately not. I find myself on the endless pursuit of cash before my MC term. Lame I Know.
I know have a stable internet connection at home, so online chatter could soon be a reality.
Have a ball at IC, Miss ya heaps.
Azz
12:33 PM
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